I don't know. Can't tell if that'll make it better or worse.
[He does, actually, because putting it to words might be enough to banish the fucking thing from doing laps in his head. But how the hell is he supposed to tell Vergil what has him so upset when the answer is him? The dark, cruel, wicked side of him that Nero met before he ever knew his name or their relationship? The one who caused very real harm, least of all to Nero personally?
It'd be honest, but it also feels like he'd be confronting him all over again, and that's the last thing he wants to do when he feels this miserable-- to make Vergil feel miserable too.]
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[He does, actually, because putting it to words might be enough to banish the fucking thing from doing laps in his head. But how the hell is he supposed to tell Vergil what has him so upset when the answer is him? The dark, cruel, wicked side of him that Nero met before he ever knew his name or their relationship? The one who caused very real harm, least of all to Nero personally?
It'd be honest, but it also feels like he'd be confronting him all over again, and that's the last thing he wants to do when he feels this miserable-- to make Vergil feel miserable too.]
It's dumb. It's just a stupid dream.